optional.Why do I feel like this.. I feel like I'm just an option.. Something only good enough when its a last resort.. A last option to some.. A ticking bomb.. A last last straw is truly what I am..If only you knew how I want out of this life.But I'm holding on.. Hoping that very soon I'm appreciated.. Or else the subtle truth will take over...I don't want to be here anymore..But I'm still struggling to hold on..
There i was.....And there I suddenly was, wrapped in a dreams sweet embrace..I look through the haze that has been put in front of my dream walking state, you appear... Lingering, beckoning me forward..Your wrapped in a light blue dyed silk dress..Showing all of your beauty like the sun to a cold day..I walk forward, moving surely and swiftly as you beckon me to hold you and whisper into your ear..Confessing secrets, confessing the undying feeling that you long so much for her sweet embrace..You suddenly stir from this realm as if you have been pulled from a place you truly belong.. Beside her grace, her beauty...her undeniable effect on you..You pause for what seems like only a second, but in fact is five, waking to a lingering feeling, a feeling that is similar to an erratic heartbeat..A kiss you surely had in a dream..Felt as if it was almost real..
Life it seems :)Labeled insane,Lost in our days,But all the same we live and we pray for lighting to strike.Just so we have the chance of blazing with bright lights and crashing sounds or life will just pass us like one flashing haze.Always we're lost and always we are found within all the crazy chemicals of ups and downs.Such is life, it seems.Just another crazy roller coaster ride
Scribbled through a dream..Scribbled letters on the back of a torn photograph,Reminded me of a dream i had..It was i who could not escape this silence my dear,But in my dream it was not you, it was i instead..And as reality checked back again,On the back of this photograph the scribbles said,"I'm so sorry for this my love, i cannot continue to live like this"I sat in silence looking straight at what was in your hand..and the perfect hole you put through your head.Good bye my love, i shallowly said..for those words echo'd on walls where your blood had stained red..
Valentines scar..as the days grow past, i still find your message hidden at the bottom of a bottle..
My Valentine..Feels like something is changing,Is it that I'm learning about you?Or is it that you're learning about me?Perhaps its the moon or maybe its the stars.Whatever it may be,No-matter how far away i might seem,And in the dark places you cannot see,To know your safe,is heaven to me.
caving in......they seem to gather in the winter fields of my mind,in the times when it feel like gazing upon hell when its been frozen over..They appear in the dark, icy skies... slowly circling like dark deformed geists,every so slightly dipping closer like vultures... as if only to savor the meal to come.they say that they are here to save me,drape my world in lust..they taunt me with chants that are whispers..oh, how they speak sweet filthy desires!how they want to drape my world in lust..such a sweet melody to this already broken and shattered soul.....my head they fill with thoughts of paradise, my heart they feed with a touch..the blissful desires...with a hint of some sort of impending doom...In exchange... some desire just the left over scraps of my flesh..some just want the scraps of my broken and fractured soul.but what they all want in common... complete control.oh, these whispers,oh, these taunts,oh, these demons and their beautifully dark corrupt promises and thou
You!She’s talking to angels, counting the starsMaking a wishes on passing cars.She’s dancing with strangers, falling apartWaiting for something to pull her apart.See her life isnt bad, it came with a silver spoon,for reasons unknown she's just doom and gloom.But still i wonder and still i stare,Because still i love her, yet to me she's despair..
A dance for the brokenShe dances across my thoughts like twisting flames,I hope she knows how she ignited my soul with just a kiss,how a simple glance melted what was once frozen over,how my dreams dance now across the palm of her hand.and how i cant get the thought of her out of my head.You see...I never realized how much i hid until you came right in,broke through my walls..And taught me how to trust,once again..